My search for my own self

I am starting this blog because so very often my friends come to me for advice. I do not profess to know anything. I am just guided by my own sense of love for myself and others. I will admit it took me years to finally see what I was doing wrong in my life. Once I did I started seeing thing in a whole new light and I was able to be truly happy. Often we think what am I doing wrong? Where is my happy ending? Why do bad things happen to good people? It all starts from within. I was wishing and hoping and praying and nothing was going my way. I seem to meet the wrong guys, have the wrong job and just be down right miserable. I did not realize that it was because of me that things were not going my way. When I was 19 I had a son and although I never saw myself as anyone’s mother I had him and granted I had several options. I grew with my child and I realized that I was his world and I needed to make sure he was happy. I had a second son at 24. There I was with two babies. I did graduate from high school went to college and also went to trade school because I knew that I had to make money to support myself and my boys. I found work which was very unfulfilling but I was able to provide for my children and give them what they needed and also wanted. At 28 when my second son was about to go to school I found work in the hospital which is where I had been trying to go, due to the fact I needed health insurance for myself as well as better health insurance for the boys. Health care holds so very many opportunties for advancement. So I seemed to have the career in place because what I wanted to do was make steady money. My real passion is not healthcare. But we will get to that. Then I began to date. Dating was the hardest thing I have ever done. I tried to stay with my Son’s father’s  with no real hope of ever having a future with either of them. I tried because I was raised to stay with the Daddy. Despite  if he is a good fit for me or not. I went through several years of depression and abuse as well as my older son because keeping his father around was the worst thing I could ever possibly do. So now that you are aware of my mistakes I will guide you through my journey to happiness.